Oh the joys of motherhood. I am so blessed to be a stay at home mother. I spend my days basking in the love of my children. They are thankful and polite and so I am. I love to make them healthy meals and they gobble them up praising my creative recipes. We like to keep things orderly. Before you can get another toy out you must put the first one back. In the morning the children bounce into the kitchen dressed and ready for the day. I sing songs of praise to wake them and my little angels glide out of bed.
Okay none of that was true.
We have been in the chaos of moving. It has been a job and a half. Luckily I have had a lot of help with the kids. The three big kids were in a full day vacation bible school program last week and the little two got a lot of time with our babysitter and her family. In fact I am pretty sure Mary wants to move in with them!
My in-laws (gasp) are here helping. Just kidding! No gasp. I have actually love my in-laws. Fancy that! We have had help with the kids and help moving. It has been as good as it could possibly be.
My normal days are jammed packed with my kids. It's not usually the same child all day but during the school year it rotates from getting the big kids to school, getting the little two ready for the day, running around with the little two (ick!), getting the big kids from school, homework (with the little two yelling), dinner, getting the little two to bed, chores with the big three, reading with Jacko, and then into bed. It doesn't stop there either. The big three are like a revolving door of issues in the evening. Mom does this tooth feel loose? I think it's a big one. Mom where is my lunch box? Mom I know it's 9:30 but can you put my clothes in the dryer when the washer stops? Really there isn't any time to myself unless I have my beloved Jasmine the babysitter over.
I am not bitter about this. I have five kids and I did actually choose to have them. It can be annoying obviously but it's the way things are. I tried to tell them I was off duty at 8 but they just keep coming in!
During all this moving craziness I didn't have my kids much. If you have children or have ever seen a child I am sure you can understand that moving and packing with any amount of them at any age 10 or under is just not helpful. Even if they are trying they are still in the way.
The first day or maybe two or three I was enjoying my freedom to come and go like a normal unhindered human. Then something happened I didn't expect. I started to miss them!
As a stay at home mom missing the kids is a rare rare thing. How can you miss kids that are always around? In my case it's not always the same child next to me but there is always a child next to me. It's not that you don't love them. It's just that they are ALWAYS right there. It was nice to miss them.
Mom life is all consuming and often I forget to relax. Who has time for that?!? Don't worry I haven't actually been doing that but my time without them made me want to spend more time with them.
Usually getting up with baby Cutie and Mary is a chore but today I liked it. Well not so much the 5:30 part but after I perked up with a cup of coffee I found myself enjoying watching Mary balancing on the railing of her bed and Cutie jumping up to cover us with blankets and snuggling in. As the bigger kids started staggering out of bed I caught some cuddles and laughs. I think perhaps we all have missed one another.
In a few days or a month I cannot promise I will feel the same, almost certainly I will not. Not that I won't be able to enjoy them but I am very sure I won't have had another chance to miss them. Hopefully in January I can miss them again. Bret and I are planning a vacation and mission Nana (Linda) and Grandma (Beth) will be launching here in the Millar home. I can't wait! A vacation is a more fun reason to be missing the kids than hours and hours of packing and hauling. Ohhhh but I do love our new place!
PS! Chloe's butt picture has nothing to do with this blog. I wanted to put it on a few blogs ago and she freaked. It's 12:09 am. She is sleeping now! HAHAHA to her:)
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